Bad Dreams

Last night I had the worst dream. I drempt that I was living in an apartment whose front door was directly adjacent to a busy street. There were three guys who were trying to get into my apartment. I tried to lock them out but each time, the lock wouldn't work. Eventually they broke in and I had to fight them out (which I eventually did). Although it wasn't a hugely traumatic event, it did really rattle me. A few days ago I had a dream that my oldest daughter had died. It really freaked me out in the dream. So much so, that I refused to believe it and kept telling myself to wake up, which I soon did.

I think these dreams are about my feeling a lack of security in my life. I was trying to think through all the potential stressors that could cause this:

- Participating in my first Olympic distance tri (I could literally be the last one to finish)
- Coming to the home stretch of the business year with a long way to go to hit my sales numbers
- Starting a new masters program in Spiritual Psychology at the Univ. of Santa Monica

It feels like I am in a house that is surrounded by something dangerous and I don't know if all the doors and windows are shut and locked. I guess its a feeling of deep vulnerability.