Praan

A friend of mine, Jessica, sent me a great video today. It was of Matt Harding dancing around the world. As the video progresses, other people join in the dance. It is such joyful video. I think joyful is the best way to describe it. I especially loved the smiles on the children's faces. It was really great to see.

Here is the video: http://antwrp.gsfc.nasa.gov/apod/ap080722.html

Here is a youtube video with the lyrics (it is in english but its phonetic bengali: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IiwpsKfFpoU

Here are the outtakes (its pretty funny in places): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tT8jA_pps3o&feature=user

The timing of her sending it to me was especially good since I have been really having a tough time these past few days. Ever since the equinox party on Saturday, I have been really out of it. At the party we were asked to look into ourselves to see what we would want to discard as the new season arrives. Looking at myself is not a particularly fun task. It really threw me and I have been off ever since. I really don't have that many friends I can talk to about this. Very few would even begin to understand.

The challenge is that every time I start to get down, all the issues seem to jump up and entangle me in self doubt, self pity, and (my favorite) hypercritical analysis of everything I am doing.

Still, I can't complain. The video was like a gift and I did have a daddy/daughter date with Alia today and that was really fun. This week was my week for spending quality alone time with each girl. Although I was really tired. each time, it was really good.